Yeah, RIGHT. The joke's on me. I guess when he closes a door, he DOES open a window, then....he slams it shut on your fingers.
At least that's what happened to me. Ok, at least that's what I FEEL happened to me (I don't mean to be disrepectful-but geez, can't I get a break???)
I may not be thinking rationally right now...but my new job fell through. I guess I should think "it wasn't meant to be" but at this moment I am too upset and angry.
I was SUPPOSED to work for a department of the hospital here in Tahoe-a decent paying job with tons of room and opportunity for growth, but noooooo. That apparently was too.much.to.ASK. There aren't many decent jobs up here. Now I might have to get a job at one of the hotels or casinos with crappy hours and even crappier pay, with people puffing smoke in my face. I moved here from LA almost 3 years ago. I was making about $42,000.00/yr down there, and up here I can't even get to $22,000.00/yr. How freaking humiliating is that!
I just don't know what I have done in my life to deserve the shit that gets piled on me sometimes. I had to start working full-time at 18, never got to go to college...but I've almost always had decent jobs...until now.
Yeah yeah yeah-I'm grateful I wasn't born in Iraq, I have family and friends, I have a great fiance, a cat who I adore and who adores me, a roof over my head, a paid off car, I'm fat but basically healthy other than a very bad back and knee, I'm pretty (and vain, I know, so bite me!)...but...still...you know? I seriously need a winning lotto ticket. Hope I can remember to buy one tomorrow.
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